"I want to love all of my life as much as I love this night".
That’s a quote from this book series l love (shout-out to authors Christina Lauren and to Laineygossip for recommending their romance novels).
I didn’t remember that quote until I was in NY one night with my friends, laughing (I don’t remember about what) and it hit me. I understood what the protagonist meant when she said she wanted to love all of her life as much as she loved the moment she was in.
New York was supposed to be a bon voyage of sorts for me. A goodbye to my twenties if you will. A goodbye to selfish asshole living. A goodbye to nights fueled by vodka and Redbull. A goodbye to cheese (for real this time).
Anyway, it was my summer of fun. It was great. It was exactly what I needed when I needed it.
Do I have to say goodbye?
I mean, I’m okay saying goodbye to cheese. What really made this summer great was feeling like I was an active participant in the world again. It was the feeling that I was actually living, I was working towards something, I was experiencing, learning, discovering. No one should ever say goodbye to the things that make them grateful to be alive.
Being in love with every aspect of your life is an amazing feeling. I decided to chase that feeling.
I chased it to San Diego.
So I'm in California now.
Don't ask me to explain why, this post is already way too long.
Everything about life right now is new, terrifying, and exciting! I'm in a completely new place and I don't have my tribe of amazing family and friends to rely on. I have to be everything for myself right now.
I am so far away from my comfort zone, I don't even remember where it is, guys.
But that's when things get interesting, right?